Its times like that when i need you to be there to hold me up.
It sucks when your day at school didnt turn out too bad,
but something has to just happen and ruin everything.
It sucks when you try to be nice and when you're in a good mood,
and somebody had to just ruin everything.
It sucks to know that you have a 12 year old sister acting like a 10 year old.
It sucks when my mood is ruin at the dinner table.
It sucks when i'm hungry but yet i've got no appetite.
It sucks to know that your parents just cant make you feel any better.
It all sums up to life is stupid.
I realised that its just so difficult to find that little happiness at home already.
I can't study here, i don't feel happy,
i start to worry about so many things,
and things that fatbitch says doesnt make me feel any better,
in fact, much much much worst.
I really hate it when that fatbitch just acts like nothing happened,
when she just says things without thinking,
and it really hurts, deep deep inside.
You just act like you are innocent, hardworking, good whatever shit you are.
I.
DONT.
GIVE.
A.
DAMN.
GET.
IT.
So what if parents do? Thank God i'm not living your life,
i tried talking you out of it,
but after all, i was just being so so dumb. Mygoodness.
And i dont know why i always have to feel bad,
after the much destruction youo made to my heart,
i still feel bad, see how much life sucks.
I really not want to be this downright i loser i am right now,
just so you know,
it really sucks alot alot alot.
I want to be free,
of worries;
of anxiety;
of sadness;
of unhappyness;
of anything that doesnt make me smile.
I went out to jump and reach for the roof when i was super upset just,
and i could touch it while wearing slippers.
How amazing, when i cant reach it wearing shoes.
What logic. I can jump higher when i'm mad.
Amazing.
I feel like going for a swim. Should I ?
I need a break from studies.
Its ruining me.